Jay is being buried today in Memphis. I wish I could be there and yet would feel completely lost. It's hard for me to imagine him lying still. It is mind-boggling to think that there will be no more antics; slow, sly grins; loping across the room; no more of the frenetic energy that spills out onto everyone else. No more electrifying performances. Worst yet, I can't even quite understand why I feel like the wind was knocked out of me on Wed and I still can't catch my breath.